Friday, June 19, 2009

hiatus

"i don't understand you. first, you are a total cynic. second, you are passion-less!"

my handsome boss retorted.

i shot him a sharp glance. winching inside, i must say.

wow. wow. wow.

the great me. a cynical now. a dispassionate cynical to be exact. where did all the glorious days gone to? what am i becoming? i gulped silently, my mind racing rapidly to find the right words to defend myself. why do i think that i need to defend myself nowadays? great. he'd forgotten another trait.

i'm cynical, dispassionate, and also defensive.

"you just don't understand" that was all i managed.

he laughed out aloud. "exactly my point. why are you like this?"

oh how i would love to answer that in details. but that would take a seriously long journey through my eyes. and not to forget, a very exhausting journey.

"things happened to me faster, earlier. i think i'm already a feminist when i was barely 15. i starts motivating people since what? 17? 18? i do social works, involved in charity organisation, travel to nice parts of the world.. " my voice trailed down. why do i even care to explain?

"never mind that. the point is. i'm simply exhausted now. i just want to sit back, and relax. let someone else care. it's like fighting a losing battle, you know?"

he smiled, amused a little. and then we skipped to the next topic. the usual topic. on why he can't understand his wife. he was doing the defending part this time, oh yes. and i was smiling from ear to ear.

life.

is simple. but i think we are making it not so simple.

12 comments:

CY3.5 said...

pergh.. macam baca ayat novel.. tertusuk kalbu den.

MN said...

perghhh...lama gila kak non berhibernasi!
welcome back.

suealeen said...

i was once a cynic person.. pastu tak reti nak sit back and relax. kerja², back kata Maria Shriver, petik jari.. next³. but Syafiah has taught me a lot. one of them is to slow down my step and relax.

auspicious_me said...

salam, lama x update.donno what the hell have u gone thru.take a deep breath my dear.

Fid said...

ini transformasi apa plak ni???

rizza said...

jadik transformer kot fid..

m-i-o said...

they say,
simplify your life.

whoa, as simple as that (?)

they never realise,
to teach is to learn twice.

to make it simple,
first you must understand it in a complicated way. after you mess up your life - then only you know,

oh, how simple it is!

to me, simple means simpul.
(read: otak bersimpul)

Mama Adib said...

im dizzy... motivation type apakah ini

Erna said...

akak!! miss you bebeh!!!!!!!!!!!!!
yer la macam citer novel ;)

NeroEcha said...

Kak non dok lama senyap sekali muncul mcm novel lak entry dia..ape kess ni?

mommysarah said...

awat mcm down sesangat knv???

rileks k...miss u'r "weng"

:)

HUda said...

mmmm aku rasa sungguhlah amat paham... takpa...lepas ni dah fly dok jauh..hang tulis novel je la...at least boleh sit down n menulis kan?

 

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