arina

antara anak2 aku, arina intrigued me the most. she is by far, the most challenging one. as much as i don't want to admit it (sebagai ibu yang kiasu :P) dia mempunyai character yang kadang2 amatlah menjengkelkan. yang buatkan aku selalu rasa berapi-api dan menyala-nyala.

ada orang kata, dia berperwatakan begitu kerana dia anak bongsu. honestly, aku rasa tidak. i think she just inherited the 'strong' part of me. bila aku tengok dia buat perangai, aku harus mengaku yang aku sedang melihat diri sendiri 30 tahun yang lepas. lepas tu akan akan tanya diri sendiri, adakah aku sebegini menjengkelkan dimata mak dan ayah aku satu ketika dulu?

she surprises us often. again, as much as i don't want to admit it, she is quite the smartest of the lot. her mind is seriously sharp. even when talking in her sleep, she marveled me with the sharpness of her words and memories. perkara-perkara macam itu yang buatkan aku sentiasa serba salah when i have to deal with her tantrums.

since in her toddler years, she always know what she wants for herself. it never failed to amuse me. and nobody. i tell you. nobody can say otherwise. yang tang ni memang aku kena monitor dia betul2. sebab kadang2 kala apa yang dia nak jugak jugak tu memang tidak baik untuk kesihatan mental dan fizikal. jadi bila keadaan jadi sungguh tidak terkawal, maka haruslah dia dipaksa berhijrah ke dalam stor pilihan selama 2-3 saat. sampai abang dan kakak2nya pulak dok tuduh aku ibu yang kejam sebab hantar adik depa masuk stor pilihan. :P

but arina dear, those seconds in the dark were always meant to educate you. honestly baby, i can't wait to see you grow up. you are undeniably strong and smart. but those traits are only good if you use it positively. sometimes in life, we can't always get what we want, no matter how much we want it. you are going to shed many many tears of frustration in the future if you don't learn to accept the facts of life. like i once did.

yep, she IS me, no doubt about it.